Wednesday, February 25, 2009

over na ako!!!!

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some peoples destiny
Passes by

There are no guarantees
There are no alibis
Thats how our love must be
Dont ask why..

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.


actually i don't want to share this thing to public. kasi nakakahiya at baka kung ano lang ang sabihin ng ibang tao!. kaya i don't want but nahihirapan ang dibdib ko? hahaha:) kung yun yung tamang masaktan kapag hindi ko ito isshare. but anyways i'll try to be discreet about this thing. medyo itatago ko yung iba pero basta bahala na kung ano yung malagay ko dito.

I HOPE BASAHIN NIYO!!!

kasi yung iba hindi naman binabasa. hahaha:) magcomment lang. ok na!. wag ganun. dapat binabasa niyo toh para makatulong kayo sa mga taong nangangailangan ng tulong tulad KO!!. hahaha:)

It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breakin
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
Ill be over you

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just A Little Too Not Over You.
Not over you....

as you can read. hahaha:) sa song pa lang ay may pina pahiwatig na!. tama?. it means, this blog is about being over or getting over. sa....


i don't know!. maybe sa thing, sa experience or sa person. (malamang yung dulo na. "save the best for last") you don't know!. hahaha:) kasi ako alam ko kaya hindi pwedeng i don't know. but anyways again. i will start na may blog. ang haba haba na ng sinulat ko hindi pa pala nagsstart. ayun magsisimula tayo sa isang araw bago maganap ang totoong nangyari. actually tong blog na to ay nangyari lang ng isang araw. but bago mangyari yung event or yung kung ano man. hahaha:)

Remembering times gone by
Promises we once made
What are the reasons why
Nothing stays the same

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

i know that im really over na in this FEELING not until he came. idedescribe ko si "he" as human? malamang. hahaha:) basta mabait sya as a friend? (i don't know as a lover. hahaha:) i don't want to think about it!!!!) magaling sa ____, cute? sabi ng iba but for me he's ok, ahmm ano pa ba?! he is not definitely smart (sabi ko na yun sa sarili ko kasi pasira na ang kanyang buhay). at isa syang malaking GAGO!!!!. hahaha:) ay kulang pa pala tarantado pa pala!.


siguro yun yung push sa aking feeling. yung pagiging gago niya na ako nasa tamang pagiging gago!. haha:) you know what?. i really don't want this feeling na ito kasi:

1. hindi sya infatuation! iba siya
2. nakakahiya
3. friend siya ( i have a rule kasi na kapag friend hindi dapat ganito)
4. rejection (dahil dito. #5)
5. papayat ulit ako!!!! hahaha:)

yun yung mga reasons ko na feeling ko medyo mababa. ayy!!!.. hindi ko pa pala nakkwento yung story talaga. ito simple lang, nagkita kami (dati kaming magkaaway) bigla kaming nagusap at POOP!! bati na kami after that may ginawa lang KAMI (isip niyo ha?) at yun! nilibre niya ako nilibre ko din sya tapos POOP!! andyan na yung feeling. siguro yun din yung reason kung bakit may ganitong feeling. kasi nagpakita siya ng kabaitan (yuck! parang pulubi naman ako sa sentence na yun).

but deep inside, ayoko talaga!. as in. magiiba lang yung tingin ko sa kanya kung ipagpapatuloy to tulad sa IBA DYAN (dbuh "crush"? kung nababasa mo to). which is i don't want to happen kaya i want to stop it na. but.....

HOW?!!?

It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breakin
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
Ill be over you

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just A Little Too Not Over You.
Not over you....

how can i get "this" (he) out of my mind?.

alam ko madaming way para mangyari yun gusto ko.

1. focus more in my studies
2. pray?
3. wala na akong maisip:)

There were the nights holding you close
Someday Ill try to forget them
Someday Ill be over you

Maybe I regret everything I said,
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own..
How I let you go, I'll never understand.
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh..
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh.

hahaha:) wala na talaga akong maisip sa way bukod sa studies. nakakainis no?. pero magandang way yun para magmove on. MAGMOVE ON? parang naging kami. hahaha:) bakit ba kasi sa daming oras ngayon pa!. dbuh?. basta nakakainis!. at of all bakit siya pa. siya na madaming bading ang nagkakagusto. tulad ni benny gandanghari. hahaha:) (baka mabasa niya patay ako!) hahaha:) wala lang. mahirap magsalita baka malaman niyo na kung sino sya. basta!. kung mabasa niyo naman to penge pa akong ways para mawala yung feeling na to. please.. salamat

As soon as my heart stops breakin
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
Ill be over you

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just A Little Too Not Over You.
Not over you....

anyways, yung ibang kulay na sulat sa itaas ay mga kanta. yung blue is from toto which is i'll over you at yung purple naman ay from david archuleta which is the a little not over you. hahaha:) pampahaba lang yan ng blog. hahaha:) effect dbuh?.

i hope talagang mabasa niyo toh!..

choco

Monday, February 2, 2009

ahmm first time?

aaaahhhh.. this would be my most tiring weekend ever!!!!.

since time memorial.. hahahaha:)

hahaha. ahm.. magpapakonyo aku ha?
little lang naman e..

ok!..

i will start it. FRIDAY!. the most SABAWang day ever. because during this day, all of my subjects especially physics ay nanjan. like my schedule would be seven to seven. this is the day na 3 ang lab at puro boring na lecture. anyways, nagstart ang sa mcdo, after taking quizzes from all the subjects. naguusap kami about kung ano ano. like teachers, blockmates at mga quizzes at mga result ng tests.



edi talk lang kami ng talk at eat lang kami ng eat ng PEN pies ng mcdo. tinatamad kaming umuwi kasi nga tinatamad kami at narinig toh ni kyla. "gusto niyo, overnight sa bahay namin?" sabi ni kyla na sa tingin ko ay joke lang because bigla na lang xang naglaugh at yun. "sige ba!." we answer. "siryoso?!" asked ni kyla. hahaha:) mga ilang repeat niya tinanong yun. kaya medyo nakakainis. and then we decided na we will go na lang. taxi kami papunta doon, kasi may dala kaming laptop. at natatakot si antonet na magjeep. gagawin kinabukasan e.



yun natuloy kami at pinagusapan namin ni antonet na we will go home after breakfast. hahaha:) sapalagay niyo ano ang nangyari?. edi hindi natuloy yung uwi namin ng breakfast kaya ayon umuwi na kami ni tonet ng 5:30 pm. pagkatapos namin kumain ng mcdo. hahaha:) actually, all we did there was just humiga at humiga.. hahaha:) play ng monopoly na only kyla ang nakagawa ng house.. nakakainis!.. after that yun lang..


after kong makauwi which is almost 8. nakita ko sa bahay ang mga baklang hinugot sa aking tadyang. hahahaha:) andami nila at sobrang dami talaga. "bakla, magbihis kana?." sabi ni ranier. "hindi ako sasama." sabi ko kasi i decide na hindi na ako pupunta kasi kulang pa ako sa tulog. "carrybells na yan.." sabi sa akin ni ranier. hanggang sa lahat na sila ay pinilit ako. kaya wala na akong magawa kung hindi go na..

taxi lang kami nagpunta dun kasi alamang magpedicab ka doon. edi napudpod yung paa ng driver. haha:) eniways, bayad lahat ng gagastusin ko dito. kay hindi ako medyo naghihinayang sa lahat ng gagastusin ko. upon reaching their.....



.....pagtapos ng party. ay nagpunta kami ng mcdo kasi most of us ay gutom na. kaya again taxi nanaman kasi wala nmang jeep doon. di buh?. then pagkakain sa mcdo ay kami ay naglakad sa buong greenhills. hahaha:) wala kaming ginawa kung hindi mag....



pictorial. hahahaha:)


wala na akong masasabi pang iba..



choco